Overdue

Always counting the minutes I have to prepare something and I realize the minutes I’ve counted before are not enough. If I organize myself to prepare a lesson plan or an essay in an afternoon, when that afternoon comes to an end, I realize that I haven’t finished what it was supposed to be finished…and you have no idea how much I hate that feeling…always behind schedule. I’m delayed with everything you can imagine and I feel like I can’t manage with everything. Something worse is that I feel I have been quite irresponsible so imagine my mood…I can’t deal with myself either!
I wish I could sleep a whole weekend so I can clear the mess I have in my head. But then I’m pretty sure that I’ll feel guiltier for that…and I will be more delayed too!
But keep calm Carolina, just take a breath and remember how you deal with situations like these…(these are the words that always say to myself to not drive me crazy=)) Anyway, the worst of all is not that I’m delaying with everything or that I don’t sleep well, but it is that I’m not being myself. I’m a quiet and thoughtful person who is always trying to see the positive side of everything and I’m losing that. And I hate that too…