Relationships

When it comes to relationships I have to say that I am the opposite of what an expert is. I’ve always been insecure in my relationships and I never fall in love with anyone. Is it sad, isn’t it?
I don’t know what it may be wrong here. Is there something wrong with me or with the rest? It would be so easy to blame men in general and say that they are the problem, but I’m not that kind of girl who can’t see her own flaws. If I’d have to describe myself I’d say I’m quite independent, tolerant, trustworthy and brave. Sometimes I am a sentimental fool and I accept it! And I also contradict myself (no, I don’t!)
And as I said before, I don’t have enough experience in relationships and sometimes I don’t know what can be good or not for me. For instance, when I realize my relationship with some guy doesn’t work I don’t suffer. It’s like I become disenchanted with it in a couple and immediately I get over it and move on with my life as nothing would have happened. This really surprises me. It’s not common for a human being to get over things just like that. Perhaps I don’t let myself to suffer or it’s because I’ve never met a person who have really caught my attention.
I’ve just recently broken up with someone. This guy is a great person. It’s incredible how well we connected from the very first time. However, I think as friends we get on well greatly though as a couple we were too different. I spent beautiful moments with him but well…it was better to let things just as they were and to continue being friends.
If you ask me whether I miss him I have to be honest and say yes, I miss him a lot. Now we’re friends though he insists on coming back again but you know what? I love him very much but I’m not interested in changing my convictions for anyone. I won’t deny that I miss spending time with him. He is a very interesting person, but I prefer being alone…what can I do?...I’m accustomed to it.