December 24th, 2008. I have to get up early today in order to clean the house ‘cause it’s my turn. I like being fast so I have some time left in the morning to drink some mate, turn on the computer and listen to some music alone and to not chat with anyone. I miss loneliness in busy days like these.
After having a small lunch I go to take a nap(I know it’s not good to go to sleep a few minutes after eating but I do it anyway) One hour later I get up afraid and almost crying for having those terrible nightmares again. Damn it, those dreams are back. I can’t believe I’m having those dreams again. I hate them.
In my dreams, someone takes me hardly by my arms and I still feel the pain. I go to say hello to my mummy and I eat some fruit. I’m always hungry when I’ve just got up. It’s funny, isn’t it?
It’s 11 o’clock now and I’m ready to have dinner but we’re waiting for my dad and my older sister to have a shower. My mother complains because of this. She says we are always in a hurry minutes before 12 and that we never have enough time to share as a family and it’s true.
Ten minutes before starting to celebrate Christmas we sit together and we share a beautiful moment. It’s a pity that it lasted a few minutes. Then we kiss each other and we have a toast.
Half past twelve, my little siblings go to their friends’ houses and my daddy goes to visit some friends. Then one of my sisters goes to sit in front of the computer, my older sister is getting ready to go to sleep and my mum goes to bed to watch TV and she seems to be pretty tired.
Meanwhile, I wash the dishes tidy the dining room, then I talk with my sister who’s with the computer and send some text messages to my friends. Then I go to my bedroom to listen to some music and take a glass of wine. I need to be alone to order my thoughts…and I’m taking advantage of it…Merry Christmas to everyone!
Friday, December 26, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
'Something in the way'
The singer of Nirvana, Kurt Cobain, wrote a song named ‘Something in the way’ and in this song he reflected a moment in his life when he was temporarily kicked out of his home and was forced to live under a bridge for shelter.
The singer expresses his feelings and emotions by saying ‘something in the way’ –maybe he thought everything was in the way every time he tried to feel better.
The line ‘animals I’ve trapped have all become my pets’ probably refers to suppressed and pessimistic condition Kurt was going through that moment. He believes there is no reason for him to escape but accept and deal with the fact he was into. The line he wrote ‘It’s okay to eat fish cause they don’t have any feelings’ might refer for being desolate where anything goes along the way would just compensate the crisis he was bearing. Whether or not he actually ate grass, kept wild creatures as pets, or ate fish is unclear but these lines certainly emphasize Kurt’s destitution.
This song has two meanings. In one way, you can look at the lyrics and just see a guy under a bridge eating fish and grass. Or, you can see each lyric as having a deeper meaning. For example, ‘and I’m living off of grass’ could be seen as a reference to Kurt’s teenage drug use. Also ‘something in the way’ is an interesting phrase because it can have several meanings; this song is amazing because it seems so simple and straight-forward but there is a lot of depth to it.
This song seems a metaphor. Who really knows what it could be: drug addiction or depression? Only Kurt really knows. The lyrics say that he had everything he needed to survive, but there was something that stopped him from living fully.
The singer expresses his feelings and emotions by saying ‘something in the way’ –maybe he thought everything was in the way every time he tried to feel better.
The line ‘animals I’ve trapped have all become my pets’ probably refers to suppressed and pessimistic condition Kurt was going through that moment. He believes there is no reason for him to escape but accept and deal with the fact he was into. The line he wrote ‘It’s okay to eat fish cause they don’t have any feelings’ might refer for being desolate where anything goes along the way would just compensate the crisis he was bearing. Whether or not he actually ate grass, kept wild creatures as pets, or ate fish is unclear but these lines certainly emphasize Kurt’s destitution.
This song has two meanings. In one way, you can look at the lyrics and just see a guy under a bridge eating fish and grass. Or, you can see each lyric as having a deeper meaning. For example, ‘and I’m living off of grass’ could be seen as a reference to Kurt’s teenage drug use. Also ‘something in the way’ is an interesting phrase because it can have several meanings; this song is amazing because it seems so simple and straight-forward but there is a lot of depth to it.
This song seems a metaphor. Who really knows what it could be: drug addiction or depression? Only Kurt really knows. The lyrics say that he had everything he needed to survive, but there was something that stopped him from living fully.
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