In 1995 I moved to a new neighbourhood and I made new friends there. One of the beutiful people I met there were Matias and Emiliano Torres. Matias was two years younger than me and Emiliano was the same age as me and they were brothers.
Their father owned a disco in Lules so he had to travel every weekend to this place. Once, their father was called by one of his partners because there was a problem at the disco and his presence was necessary there. Matias wanted to go with him but his dad told him to stay at home because the roads could be dangerous at that moment (it was midnight) and he also told Matias to stay to take care of his mum.
Two hours later, the family received a phone call from a police station telling them Mr Torres had a car accident and he was hospitalized. When they arrived to the hospital, the man had already died.
This situation was completely sad for both of them. They both felt a part of them had gone with their father and as the time went by, they could feel the absence of their father.
With the passing of time, Emiliano started to feel better. He loved his father with all his soul and he said he knew his dad would be very sad if they didn´t move on with their life. However, Matias remembered him all the time and he always said he would have loved being together with his father because he was too weak to face this world without him and he knew Emiliano would take care of his mum if something happened to him.
In 2001, Matias was seriously ill. He had hepatitis, and after several times he had been gospitalized, he died on the same year. The death of Matias almost drove Emiliano to insanity. He couldn´t accept the fact of having lost his father and his brother and he went to supportive psycotherapy for a couple of years and he is better now. He understood his brother is better and surely he is where he always wanted to be since his father had gone, and that is just together with him.

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Life is unfair. Some people get the best and thet live happily in a beautiful world without suffering and their only problems are related to superficial facts...and some of us have to learn to live with our harships without knowing how to deal with them and without sharing them with the people who care about us. Even knowing that they could help us, it is too much suffering that we do not want to make the things more complicated than they are. When is it that we will be able to learn to trust?, but I´m not sure if it is a matter of trusting or what. Most of the time you feel terrible when you can´t tell how you feel in certain moments because you perfectly know that frienship is all about trusting, but you can´t help it... But it is not that you don´t trust...perhaps it is just that you feel ashame for things that happened in the past and you don´t want to bring them to your mind again...

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Sometimes I wonder why it is that we don´t talk about our feelings or it is so difficult for us to express them...Why is it that we can´t share our deepest thoughts?...and for this, you will find several reasons. One of the most important is that you may feel embarrased about some situations that happened to you in the past and it is difficult to share them with the people who care about you...it is a strange feeling that you have just to think of the fact of telling them about those situations. Besides, you may think it would be better if you don´t talk about those things because they can come to the present and they will hurt you again just as they did it in the past...Perhaps you believe that if you don´t mention those situations,they will disappear with the passing of time. But that would be a stupid lie. They won´t go anywhere...the more you want them out of your mind, the more they will be present everyday of your life hurting you like a thorn in your heart but reminding you who you are and who you can be and this feeling will always be present there, in your mind and your soul.

Freedom

One of the most important moments in my life was when I taste freedom for the first time. At the age of 18, I decided to travel to Buenos Aires by my own to see one of my favourite bands in those times. Although the concert was great, the fact of being in a place I didn´t know was a complete challenge for me and I really enjoyed it!!!, for the first time I was doing what I wanted without being controlled or restricted by anyone... When I needed to know about how to get to different places, I asked several people the same question so I made sure they were not giving me the wrong information and in that way I managed to travel from one place to the other. I felt a little bit worried about what could happen to me there, but I think it was a wonderful experience and I hope to have the opportunity to do it again.

I have to say that I can´t stand people who think they are better than the rest and are talking all the time about themselves or about how great they think they are. Unfortunately, during my attendances to the faculty´s classes and during these four years at Lola Mora´s institute, I´ve met lot of them. At the beginning I didn´t care what they did because I thought it is much better if you don´t think about it. At the faculty it was better to deal with this situation because I didn´t share too much time with those people, but here at the the institute it was worse.
I have to say that I met some people that are incredible great and that I consider my friends and there are some people who arewonderful classmates and I really know I can count on them if I need something. I do have good relationships with most of my classmates, but it´s just that the arrogance of some of them is what makes me angry. I think you just have to let them be, but the way they treat another people irritates me...I could observate in many situations the way the people who think are the best one treat those ones who are dependant, weak or whatever you want to call them or maybe because they are still looking for acceptance, they don´t know how to defend when they are treated unfairly.
I know that it is not going to be the last time I have to deal with a situation like this because that´s life and I know I must accept it or to be indiferent towards certain things that I don´t like.