I always loved writing. I think it was the only thing I liked. I remember every time I had a language test, the very first thing I did when the teacher gave me the exam was to look at the title of the essay, article or whatever I had on task to write so I could think of ideas in order to put them on my paper… I used to enjoy writing…
The last years at the Lola Mora have been more or less the same but this year was the exception. I do not know why is that I feel this way but I feel like everything I write is wrong; especially with the essays.
My English Language teacher told me I should be more organized before writing something and I did try but I keep on doing the same mistake. In fact, there are times that while I’m writing something I notice the failures but as I don’t know how to correct them I let the things how they are. I feel like I wouldn’t be able to write something better.
Now that the English Language exam is coming I’m worried because I still have doubts about my skills to write a good essay. All I know is that I hope to overcome this fear before that day because if not, I know I’ll feel quite disappointed of myself.
Monday, December 3, 2007
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Opportunities
I always remember an excellent teacher at High school who used to say that in the process of teaching and learning, the teacher needed to be open and ready to give opportunities to their students otherwise, it will be hard for them to get the respect from the students.
During these last two years I had the opportunity to start training to become a teacher in the near future. I had students at eighth and ninth year and next year I will be teaching training in the Polimodal level. I also was working in a Catholic school as a pasante, helping a little girl who has difficulties at learning as she suffers from deficit of attention among others problems. The thing is that I was working together with the teacher of that class who was Miss Josefina, and who helped me a lot. It gave me the opportunity to practice with her class giving me suggestions and tips for the next classes I was going to give. I felt nervous but confident at the same time.
The little girl I was working with is beautiful. Her name is Paulina and the first time we met, she asked me why I was going to be only with her and not with the rest of the girls, and I said “I chose working with you because you seem to be special”, and she smiled at me.
At the beginning it was very hard to catch her attention as she did not know whom to follow, her teacher or me. The thing is that with the passing of time she started to improve in English. Having many difficulties in producing pieces of writing in her mother tongue, her psychologist suggested me to encourage the child to work with the basic contents in the second language and she seemed to enjoy doing the exercises I prepared for her.
Now that exams are over, this little child could overcome different situations, for instance, she can now produce sentences in English and she managed to pass the oral exams (which was a huge burden for her at the beginning). Through games and draws, she learnt colours, numbers and other lexical items that where necessary for her to learn to pass the subject. However, I have to say that the most important for me was that she has learnt something from me. To be honest, there were times in which I wished to run away as I didn’t know how to help her. I knew she needed me, but I didn’t know what to do. I felt weak and unable to deal with those difficulties, but Miss Josefina and some friends of mine (who are future teachers too) made me realize I could do something for this kid and thank God the results were excellent.
When I started this entry, I remembered what my favourite teacher used to say and I think he’s right. Opportunities should be given for everyone. It’s a good way to show that you as teacher or you as student can do something to learn. In my case, I am extremely pleased to have had a teacher like Miss Josefina to help me during the last three months and in the case Paulina, the last time I saw her, she shown thankful for having the opportunity to learn something it was very difficult for her at the beginning.
During these last two years I had the opportunity to start training to become a teacher in the near future. I had students at eighth and ninth year and next year I will be teaching training in the Polimodal level. I also was working in a Catholic school as a pasante, helping a little girl who has difficulties at learning as she suffers from deficit of attention among others problems. The thing is that I was working together with the teacher of that class who was Miss Josefina, and who helped me a lot. It gave me the opportunity to practice with her class giving me suggestions and tips for the next classes I was going to give. I felt nervous but confident at the same time.
The little girl I was working with is beautiful. Her name is Paulina and the first time we met, she asked me why I was going to be only with her and not with the rest of the girls, and I said “I chose working with you because you seem to be special”, and she smiled at me.
At the beginning it was very hard to catch her attention as she did not know whom to follow, her teacher or me. The thing is that with the passing of time she started to improve in English. Having many difficulties in producing pieces of writing in her mother tongue, her psychologist suggested me to encourage the child to work with the basic contents in the second language and she seemed to enjoy doing the exercises I prepared for her.
Now that exams are over, this little child could overcome different situations, for instance, she can now produce sentences in English and she managed to pass the oral exams (which was a huge burden for her at the beginning). Through games and draws, she learnt colours, numbers and other lexical items that where necessary for her to learn to pass the subject. However, I have to say that the most important for me was that she has learnt something from me. To be honest, there were times in which I wished to run away as I didn’t know how to help her. I knew she needed me, but I didn’t know what to do. I felt weak and unable to deal with those difficulties, but Miss Josefina and some friends of mine (who are future teachers too) made me realize I could do something for this kid and thank God the results were excellent.
When I started this entry, I remembered what my favourite teacher used to say and I think he’s right. Opportunities should be given for everyone. It’s a good way to show that you as teacher or you as student can do something to learn. In my case, I am extremely pleased to have had a teacher like Miss Josefina to help me during the last three months and in the case Paulina, the last time I saw her, she shown thankful for having the opportunity to learn something it was very difficult for her at the beginning.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Graduation Party
Last week I had the pleasure to be in the graduation party of my classmates from fourth year and I have to say that I enjoyed it a lot. Perhaps I didn’t realize until that moment that I’m going to miss them a lot. I’m gonna miss the interesting points of view from Chessica, the complaints and the craziness about music from Mauricio, the tenderness that Silvita has to talk to me, the jokes from Rachel, the “ready to everything” Pato and my dear friend Barbarita, who has always been a very special friend to me. I’m really gonna miss them all, though I’m pretty sure I’ll keep on touch with some of them.
That night I realized that we(my girl friends and I), are not gonna have a group like that next year, which is supposed to be our last year and that made me feel a little bit of melancholy. I mean, I spent four years with this group. In this four years it happened a lot of things, lots of argues, laughs, triumphs (as I never thought I was going to be on stage as I was when we presented “Halloween”). We really did have a lot of fun…
Anyway, besides all these thoughts and memories that are coming to my mind right now, I want to tell you guys, and perhaps I’ve already told you this before, but I’ll say it again; I wish you the best for each one of you, be great teachers, give opportunities and believe in what you and your students do.
That night I realized that we(my girl friends and I), are not gonna have a group like that next year, which is supposed to be our last year and that made me feel a little bit of melancholy. I mean, I spent four years with this group. In this four years it happened a lot of things, lots of argues, laughs, triumphs (as I never thought I was going to be on stage as I was when we presented “Halloween”). We really did have a lot of fun…
Anyway, besides all these thoughts and memories that are coming to my mind right now, I want to tell you guys, and perhaps I’ve already told you this before, but I’ll say it again; I wish you the best for each one of you, be great teachers, give opportunities and believe in what you and your students do.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Big Brother Horror Show
Title: Big Brother Horror Show
Date: November 1st, 2007
Source: http://www.thefirstpost.co.uk/index.php?storyID=9400
Vocabulary
Conglomerate: a corporation consisting of a number of subsidiary companies or divisions in a variety of unrelated industries, usually as a result of merger or acquisition.
Undiluted: not weak.
Air: to broadcast or televise.
Drinking bout: a long period of drinking.
Copious: large in quantity or number; abundant; plentiful.
Adamant: utterly unyielding in attitude or opinion in spite of all appeals, urgings, etc./ determined or insistent.
Comatose: affected with or characterized by coma.
Chump: a stupid or foolish person; a dolt.
Footage: a shot or series of shots of a specified nature or subject.
Main Ideas
- African viewers saw a woman being assaulted by one of her housemates on Big Brother TV show.
- Viewers claimed to be concerned about this fact but TV producers say that there is no indication that she was unconcious at that time and that it appeared to exist consensual physical relationship between the housemates.
- The woman was extremely drunk after an extended drinking bout on Saturday afternoon.
- The contest is due to reach its climax on November 11 and the man who is being blamed for assault his housemate is one of the finalists.
- It is estimated that in Africa, a woman is sexually assaulted every 40 seconds.
Personal reaction
I have always thought this kind of reality show was only able to reflect the human beings´miseries but I never thought they would be able to permit (and transmit)the rape of a person even more knowing that Africa is a country in which women are being sexually assaulted with more frequency. TV producers will never admit this incident could have been avoided but apparently money is more important than a woman’s dignity. It would be great this sort of TV show be finally banned so this world is less sick.
Date: November 1st, 2007
Source: http://www.thefirstpost.co.uk/index.php?storyID=9400
Vocabulary
Conglomerate: a corporation consisting of a number of subsidiary companies or divisions in a variety of unrelated industries, usually as a result of merger or acquisition.
Undiluted: not weak.
Air: to broadcast or televise.
Drinking bout: a long period of drinking.
Copious: large in quantity or number; abundant; plentiful.
Adamant: utterly unyielding in attitude or opinion in spite of all appeals, urgings, etc./ determined or insistent.
Comatose: affected with or characterized by coma.
Chump: a stupid or foolish person; a dolt.
Footage: a shot or series of shots of a specified nature or subject.
Main Ideas
- African viewers saw a woman being assaulted by one of her housemates on Big Brother TV show.
- Viewers claimed to be concerned about this fact but TV producers say that there is no indication that she was unconcious at that time and that it appeared to exist consensual physical relationship between the housemates.
- The woman was extremely drunk after an extended drinking bout on Saturday afternoon.
- The contest is due to reach its climax on November 11 and the man who is being blamed for assault his housemate is one of the finalists.
- It is estimated that in Africa, a woman is sexually assaulted every 40 seconds.
Personal reaction
I have always thought this kind of reality show was only able to reflect the human beings´miseries but I never thought they would be able to permit (and transmit)the rape of a person even more knowing that Africa is a country in which women are being sexually assaulted with more frequency. TV producers will never admit this incident could have been avoided but apparently money is more important than a woman’s dignity. It would be great this sort of TV show be finally banned so this world is less sick.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
For fourth year... there it goes...
Classes are coming to an end and coming soon my classmates of fourth year are about to graduate. Some of them will do it in December, some others in March and so on…
The point is that they are to graduate. You’re becoming teachers guys! And that’s great. I’m gonna miss you all…
When I started studying in the Lola Mora in 2004 I met great people. They were all special in certain way. I shared wonderful moments with many of them. I met interesting people there whom I really felt connected with.
Of course, conflicts were present many times…relationships are complicated, you know?...anyway, the thing is that many of us overcame it and some others are still trying…
I’m gonna miss the laughs, the jokes, the fights, the complains and some other things we’ve shared. But it’s going to be something good for you…new roads to discover. You’re finally reaching your dreams and that is good…yeah, of course it will be good. The only thing I can say (as I’m not good for the compliments or those things related to feelings), it’s that I wish the best for all of you and I hope you be wonderful teachers, teaching your students something more than a second language… teaching them to be humble and good people and to follow and fight for their dreams.
The point is that they are to graduate. You’re becoming teachers guys! And that’s great. I’m gonna miss you all…
When I started studying in the Lola Mora in 2004 I met great people. They were all special in certain way. I shared wonderful moments with many of them. I met interesting people there whom I really felt connected with.
Of course, conflicts were present many times…relationships are complicated, you know?...anyway, the thing is that many of us overcame it and some others are still trying…
I’m gonna miss the laughs, the jokes, the fights, the complains and some other things we’ve shared. But it’s going to be something good for you…new roads to discover. You’re finally reaching your dreams and that is good…yeah, of course it will be good. The only thing I can say (as I’m not good for the compliments or those things related to feelings), it’s that I wish the best for all of you and I hope you be wonderful teachers, teaching your students something more than a second language… teaching them to be humble and good people and to follow and fight for their dreams.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Dellirium
There are people who think they are no one, but they don’t realize they are someone. You are someone if someone thinks about you. Maybe if you’re not sure about it, it does exist a person who thinks about you, who cares about you no matter what. Without knowing it, you may be part of their concerns and somehow you’re being part of their lives. You need to start to learn that it’s not that you’re not important but you don’t give yourself the importance that you deserve. It’s just a matter of making a balance between who you are and who you wanna be.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Frustration
Tonight I feel disillusioned with myself. I feel like I’m mad with myself. I’m angry. I feel weak. I was supposed to pass that exam (that was my purpose of taking the subject again). Not to fail. I don’t know what happens with me or what is wrong with me. I don’t know if I don’t pay enough attention, don’t follow the instructions and do what I want or what. I feel like I’m not making any improvement at all. I don’t know if I’m so mediocre that I keep myself with the things I learnt and I don’t wanna learn more or I’m so blocked with the latest events that have happened in my life that I’m being quite negative and that negation doesn’t allow me to see the progress. I just don’t know… the only thing that I know is that the constant feeling of being in the same place without move hasn’t gone yet, but don’t get me wrong with this. I know that there are worst things in life. I’m a realistic person and I know there are more important things in life. I know people who are fighting every day for their lives. I’m not going to make such a tragedy of this. My life is not so shallow or so meaningless to make of this a big deal. It’s just that I haven’t slept well these last days and pessimism reign in my world for the moment.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Kurt
"The intensity, the aggression, the hatred. You could just hear a lead singer scream at the top of his lungs. I felt that way. I wanted to smash things." -Kurt Cobain
I remember the first time I heard Kurt Cobain singing. It was for the MTV Video Music Awards in 1992 and I was 9 years old. Despite of my early age I was caught by his voice… there was something about it. It was as if he was being hurted, you could feel his pain, and I think it’s not necessary to say that from that moment I become a Nirvana’s fan.
Kurt Cobain was born on 20th February, 1967 in Aberdeen, Washington. He was a hyperactive child but he lived happily with his family. At the age of seven his parents got divorce, which caused a huge impact on his life becoming anti-social and isolated. He lived for a while with his father and then he moved with his mother. He didn’t finish secondary school because two weeks before his graduation he realized he did not have enough good marks to get his degree. His mother kicked him from her house and he stayed at some friends`houses and he also lived under a bridge over a river.
Still being a child, he bought his first guitar and started to experiment different music styles. His musical success began with Nirvana, being Kurt the leader and guitarist of the band, Krist Novaselic on bass and Dave Grohl as the drummer.
In 1989 they released their first album called Bleach though they found their greatest success when they produced and released their following album Nevermind. They performed in several countries and had thousands of fans around the world. However, Kurt found the success of the band a little intimidating and liked the intimate setting of small night clubs.
Almost all his life he suffered from intense physical pain due to an undiagnosed chronic stomach condition and also dealing with depression. As a consequence, he started to use different kinds of drugs in order to end up with these pains, becoming in an addict. Because of his morphine and heroin addictions, he went into rehab several times, but left without completing the program. Throughout the early 90`s, he married Courtney Love and had a daughter.
In 1994, the band was on MTV`s Unplugged, making this album a great success. One week after a concert in Munich Kurt fell in a comma. He woke up and left the hospital voluntarily, but was reported missing. He fled back to Seattle without making his movements known to any members of his family. On April 8th, his body was found by an electrician who was to install a burglar alarm in Kurt’s residence. He had committed suicide.
After his decease, several theories have come out about his suicide. One of those theories is that some people blame his wife for driving him into his suicide; some others think Kurt was murdered but there are not proofs of that; and there are people who have accepted that he committed suicide.
All in all, Kurt is not here with us anymore, but he still inspires most of us with his wonderful music. He was a great artist and he’ll always be. We still have his music, his songs and nobody will take that away from us…
Kurt Cobain was born on 20th February, 1967 in Aberdeen, Washington. He was a hyperactive child but he lived happily with his family. At the age of seven his parents got divorce, which caused a huge impact on his life becoming anti-social and isolated. He lived for a while with his father and then he moved with his mother. He didn’t finish secondary school because two weeks before his graduation he realized he did not have enough good marks to get his degree. His mother kicked him from her house and he stayed at some friends`houses and he also lived under a bridge over a river.
Still being a child, he bought his first guitar and started to experiment different music styles. His musical success began with Nirvana, being Kurt the leader and guitarist of the band, Krist Novaselic on bass and Dave Grohl as the drummer.
In 1989 they released their first album called Bleach though they found their greatest success when they produced and released their following album Nevermind. They performed in several countries and had thousands of fans around the world. However, Kurt found the success of the band a little intimidating and liked the intimate setting of small night clubs.
Almost all his life he suffered from intense physical pain due to an undiagnosed chronic stomach condition and also dealing with depression. As a consequence, he started to use different kinds of drugs in order to end up with these pains, becoming in an addict. Because of his morphine and heroin addictions, he went into rehab several times, but left without completing the program. Throughout the early 90`s, he married Courtney Love and had a daughter.
In 1994, the band was on MTV`s Unplugged, making this album a great success. One week after a concert in Munich Kurt fell in a comma. He woke up and left the hospital voluntarily, but was reported missing. He fled back to Seattle without making his movements known to any members of his family. On April 8th, his body was found by an electrician who was to install a burglar alarm in Kurt’s residence. He had committed suicide.
After his decease, several theories have come out about his suicide. One of those theories is that some people blame his wife for driving him into his suicide; some others think Kurt was murdered but there are not proofs of that; and there are people who have accepted that he committed suicide.
All in all, Kurt is not here with us anymore, but he still inspires most of us with his wonderful music. He was a great artist and he’ll always be. We still have his music, his songs and nobody will take that away from us…
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Title: Argentina’s New Evita?
Date: July 2nd, 2007
Source: http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1639509,00.html
Vocabulary
Startling: creating sudden alarm, surprise, or wonder; astonishing.
Firebrand: a person who kindles strife or encourages unrest; an agitator; troublemaker.
Incumbent: One who holds a public office. By virtue of their experience in office, their exposure to the public, and their ability to raise campaign funds, incumbents usually have a significant advantage over opponents if they choose to run for reelection.
Nicety: delicacy of character, as of something requiring care or tact.
Usher: lead, introduce, or conduct.
Antagonize: to make hostile or unfriendly; make an enemy/ to act in opposition to; oppose.
Veer: to change direction or turn about or aside; shift, turn, or change from one course, position, inclination, etc., to another.
Alignment: a state of agreement or cooperation among persons, groups, nations, etc., with a common cause or viewpoint.
Recruit: to renew or restore.
Key: to regulate or adjust (actions, thoughts, speech, etc.) to a particular state or activity; bring into conformity.
Wary: On guard; watchful; cautious.
Main Ideas
- The current Argentine’s first lady Cristina Kirchner will run for the presidency in the upcoming October elections.
- Mrs Kirchner has a reputation as an implacable anti-corruption fighter and is seen as a more temperamental and radical politician than her husband.
- Her husband, President Kirchner, rescued Argentina from the agonizing economic crisis.
- Mrs Kirchner is expected to pursue more radical policies.
- President Kirchner and the First Lady actually lead in the most recent polls and the same polls show that in any case, either Kirchner would easily defeat the leading opposition candidates.
- It is said that Cristina has better chance of recruiting political support from outside traditional Peronists voters.
- A political analyst says that President Kirchner has ambitions of a long-life term in office.
- If Mrs Kirchner`s candidancy is successful, Mr Kirchner will be allow to run for elections in 2011.
- It is said that the Kirchners`plan is to succeed each other in office on a long-term basis.
Personal Reaction
I chose this article because this situation was rather similar to what happened during Peron’s presidency. Let’s not forget that Evita was considered Peron’s equal and if not for her early death, may have become his successor. Actually, we can see the Kirchners is a very strong couple with aspirations of improving our country and this is important for the development of our nation. Cristina Kirchner seems to be a charismatic and very clever and ambitious woman. If she succeeds in the coming election, she will have to do a huge effort in order to go on improving the country and to not disappoint the Argentines.
Date: July 2nd, 2007
Source: http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1639509,00.html
Vocabulary
Startling: creating sudden alarm, surprise, or wonder; astonishing.
Firebrand: a person who kindles strife or encourages unrest; an agitator; troublemaker.
Incumbent: One who holds a public office. By virtue of their experience in office, their exposure to the public, and their ability to raise campaign funds, incumbents usually have a significant advantage over opponents if they choose to run for reelection.
Nicety: delicacy of character, as of something requiring care or tact.
Usher: lead, introduce, or conduct.
Antagonize: to make hostile or unfriendly; make an enemy/ to act in opposition to; oppose.
Veer: to change direction or turn about or aside; shift, turn, or change from one course, position, inclination, etc., to another.
Alignment: a state of agreement or cooperation among persons, groups, nations, etc., with a common cause or viewpoint.
Recruit: to renew or restore.
Key: to regulate or adjust (actions, thoughts, speech, etc.) to a particular state or activity; bring into conformity.
Wary: On guard; watchful; cautious.
Main Ideas
- The current Argentine’s first lady Cristina Kirchner will run for the presidency in the upcoming October elections.
- Mrs Kirchner has a reputation as an implacable anti-corruption fighter and is seen as a more temperamental and radical politician than her husband.
- Her husband, President Kirchner, rescued Argentina from the agonizing economic crisis.
- Mrs Kirchner is expected to pursue more radical policies.
- President Kirchner and the First Lady actually lead in the most recent polls and the same polls show that in any case, either Kirchner would easily defeat the leading opposition candidates.
- It is said that Cristina has better chance of recruiting political support from outside traditional Peronists voters.
- A political analyst says that President Kirchner has ambitions of a long-life term in office.
- If Mrs Kirchner`s candidancy is successful, Mr Kirchner will be allow to run for elections in 2011.
- It is said that the Kirchners`plan is to succeed each other in office on a long-term basis.
Personal Reaction
I chose this article because this situation was rather similar to what happened during Peron’s presidency. Let’s not forget that Evita was considered Peron’s equal and if not for her early death, may have become his successor. Actually, we can see the Kirchners is a very strong couple with aspirations of improving our country and this is important for the development of our nation. Cristina Kirchner seems to be a charismatic and very clever and ambitious woman. If she succeeds in the coming election, she will have to do a huge effort in order to go on improving the country and to not disappoint the Argentines.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Spring
Spring in Tucuman is rather special I’d say. Things look different at that moment of the year. Everything seems to be more beautiful and you feel able to perceive a nice atmosphere in every place you are. You can feel it on the air; the scent of flowers is present and that makes you feel better…
On September 21st, we tend to celebrate the coming of spring and the Students`day. Thousands of students go out in order to celebrate their day.
Colours, smells, and different sensations are perceived at this time of the year, but there is something about this month and particularly with this season. It is said that it is the season of love and this is the time when love starts to appear (or reappear) among couples. And it seems to be true. The last few days I could notice that there are many people in love or new couples that are starting a new relationship and it’s nice to see all those feeling that appear at this time reflected on their eyes.
On September 21st, we tend to celebrate the coming of spring and the Students`day. Thousands of students go out in order to celebrate their day.
Colours, smells, and different sensations are perceived at this time of the year, but there is something about this month and particularly with this season. It is said that it is the season of love and this is the time when love starts to appear (or reappear) among couples. And it seems to be true. The last few days I could notice that there are many people in love or new couples that are starting a new relationship and it’s nice to see all those feeling that appear at this time reflected on their eyes.
Monday, August 20, 2007
Anger
Why did you come back?... you were supposed to be part of the past… you don’t have anything to do here… I don’t need you here… you don’t belong to us anymore… I hate you and I don’t want to know anything else… I’m tired of you… I’m sick of you…Leave me alone… just leave us alone… We deserve some peace… We deserve to be happy… We shouldn’t be like that… we aren’t supposed to feel like that…I can’t live like that…It has been enough…I can’t stand it anymore…Stop please
Monday, August 13, 2007
Entries
“Why writing entries?” that was the first question that came to my mind when our English Language teacher told us we had to do. We were supposed to create a blog in which we had to publish pieces of writings and we were allowed to choose the topics. “It’s a waste of time”, I thought then. “How can you write for 30 minutes about different issues?, that’s not possible”. And then dozens of negative thoughts came to my mind about our given task.
Then, when I wrote my first entries which were about hidden thoughts, feelings or events that were part of my life and I considered them important, I felt relief. It was like a therapy as I’m a quite reserved person unable to speak about my feelings, and this way of writing helped me a lot.
Of course there were times in which I felt blocked and I didn’t know what to write about and as I am not a very creative person, I tended to write about events that happened to other people I know.
Now that the deadline is today and I’m supposed to have ready my 39 entries (and the articles), I decided to write about the effects of writing on me. It may cause me a bit of frustration, as I don’t have enough time to dedicate them; but they also make me feel relief, though I would have never imagined to be writing about me or my thoughts on a blog.
Then, when I wrote my first entries which were about hidden thoughts, feelings or events that were part of my life and I considered them important, I felt relief. It was like a therapy as I’m a quite reserved person unable to speak about my feelings, and this way of writing helped me a lot.
Of course there were times in which I felt blocked and I didn’t know what to write about and as I am not a very creative person, I tended to write about events that happened to other people I know.
Now that the deadline is today and I’m supposed to have ready my 39 entries (and the articles), I decided to write about the effects of writing on me. It may cause me a bit of frustration, as I don’t have enough time to dedicate them; but they also make me feel relief, though I would have never imagined to be writing about me or my thoughts on a blog.
He and She (first part)
He loved flirting with women (he loved doing that). He was a very handsome man who took advantage of his good-looking appearance to get women whenever he wanted and just with a finger click he got what he wanted. He was always surrounded by his friends, parties and women.
She was totally different. She was quite reserved and shy. Apathy reigned in her world, feeling uninterested about everything. She was not pretty at all but she got something that made her interesting, her personality.
No one could have ever imagined that these both different people would meet. But they did in fact.
They both were in the same bar a Saturday night having dinner and preparing for going to dance each one with their group. They were closely sitting and he with his friends were talking and laughing too loudly while she and her friends were quietly having their meals. She was quite annoyed because of those loud laughs. She felt that they were doing too much noise to be there and she let them know by looking at them in a serious way, and the first one of the male group to notice that was him. He thought it was funny to see her angry, but he was conscious that they were being quite noisy so he made his friends speak lower.
He couldn’t take out his eyes from her. He looked at her expressions, the way she talked, her face, her eyes… meanwhile she was lively talking to her friends. She was telling an anecdote to the other girls and every time she did this, she did it in a special way. So while she was telling her story, she noticed he was looking at her and immediately she felt inhibited for that and stopped talking.
She was totally different. She was quite reserved and shy. Apathy reigned in her world, feeling uninterested about everything. She was not pretty at all but she got something that made her interesting, her personality.
No one could have ever imagined that these both different people would meet. But they did in fact.
They both were in the same bar a Saturday night having dinner and preparing for going to dance each one with their group. They were closely sitting and he with his friends were talking and laughing too loudly while she and her friends were quietly having their meals. She was quite annoyed because of those loud laughs. She felt that they were doing too much noise to be there and she let them know by looking at them in a serious way, and the first one of the male group to notice that was him. He thought it was funny to see her angry, but he was conscious that they were being quite noisy so he made his friends speak lower.
He couldn’t take out his eyes from her. He looked at her expressions, the way she talked, her face, her eyes… meanwhile she was lively talking to her friends. She was telling an anecdote to the other girls and every time she did this, she did it in a special way. So while she was telling her story, she noticed he was looking at her and immediately she felt inhibited for that and stopped talking.
He and She (second part)
Then both groups paid their bills and went to dance. For his fortune, she was at the same disco as him. He wanted to talk to her but he was nervous. It was the first time that a woman made him feel nervous. He never felt like that. His eyes were fixed on her and his hands were sweating. “Why am I feeling in this way?”, he wondered.
After a couple of minutes, she and one of her friends went to buy a drink and he came close to her. His heart beat faster, but he couldn’t miss that chance. It was now or never, so he walked toward her and took her hand, she turned around and looked at him. The world stopped. The music stopped. They eyes were fixed each other and everybody seemed to have disappeared. In fact, it was as if they were in other place. None of them said a word. This moment seemed as it was going to last for hours… till her friend came back to interrupt that moment. When she realized of everything that happened and noticed this event was real (and none of those that she always dreamed about), she got afraid. She was not able to begin a relationship with anybody. Those inner fears of having a relation came to her mind and she dropped his hand and ran away. He followed her, but she managed to escape. He felt desperate of thinking about that he could lose her for ever. No, that could not be possible.
His heart ached when he thought about that possibility. He looked for her in everywhere but she had already disappeared. He felt anguished.
He found his friends and told them about that girl and they suggested him not to go on looking for, but he knew deep in his heart that they had a connection. He knew she was the love of his life and he wouldn’t be able to be with other woman. He won’t give up. So every weekend he goes to the same disco to wait for her but till now she hasn’t appeared. However, he swore himself he’s gonna wait until she decide to come back…
After a couple of minutes, she and one of her friends went to buy a drink and he came close to her. His heart beat faster, but he couldn’t miss that chance. It was now or never, so he walked toward her and took her hand, she turned around and looked at him. The world stopped. The music stopped. They eyes were fixed each other and everybody seemed to have disappeared. In fact, it was as if they were in other place. None of them said a word. This moment seemed as it was going to last for hours… till her friend came back to interrupt that moment. When she realized of everything that happened and noticed this event was real (and none of those that she always dreamed about), she got afraid. She was not able to begin a relationship with anybody. Those inner fears of having a relation came to her mind and she dropped his hand and ran away. He followed her, but she managed to escape. He felt desperate of thinking about that he could lose her for ever. No, that could not be possible.
His heart ached when he thought about that possibility. He looked for her in everywhere but she had already disappeared. He felt anguished.
He found his friends and told them about that girl and they suggested him not to go on looking for, but he knew deep in his heart that they had a connection. He knew she was the love of his life and he wouldn’t be able to be with other woman. He won’t give up. So every weekend he goes to the same disco to wait for her but till now she hasn’t appeared. However, he swore himself he’s gonna wait until she decide to come back…
Coming Elections
Yesterday, I read on a local newspaper about an interview to a group of young people who are going to vote for the first time for the coming elections on August 26th.
These people said that they still haven’t chosen the candidate as they are aware of the fact that none of the candidates are really good enough. Unfortunately, they are not the only ones who think in that way.
Corruption, censorship, crimes without being punished and lack of commitment are words that come to my mind when I think about the candidates. It’s hard to know who could be the right one, but is there a right one?. I don’t think so.
The current governor has done so many things to not count with my vote (and I think many people will agree with me). He was so corrupt and dictator with his actions that I’m not even going to consider him when I be in “the dark room”. And if I think of the rest of them I also feel insecure. Of course that there might be honest people with their own ideals of changing the problems in our province, but how do we do to find them, to realize who they are?.
These people said that they still haven’t chosen the candidate as they are aware of the fact that none of the candidates are really good enough. Unfortunately, they are not the only ones who think in that way.
Corruption, censorship, crimes without being punished and lack of commitment are words that come to my mind when I think about the candidates. It’s hard to know who could be the right one, but is there a right one?. I don’t think so.
The current governor has done so many things to not count with my vote (and I think many people will agree with me). He was so corrupt and dictator with his actions that I’m not even going to consider him when I be in “the dark room”. And if I think of the rest of them I also feel insecure. Of course that there might be honest people with their own ideals of changing the problems in our province, but how do we do to find them, to realize who they are?.
The hidden lady (first part)
It was a cold winter’s night and as usual, my friends arrived home. When it was too cold for being walking around our neighbourhood we used to stay at home talking, listening to music or playing cards, but that night was perfect to go out. Never had I imagined that my friends and I would be involved in such a situation.
As the night to be ready to be enjoyed, I convinced my friends of going out for a walk, even knowing it was too cold and dark outside, I asked them to go to the surroundings of the Lawn Tennis Club as it was covered with trees and I loved walking over there.
As we were arriving to that place, some of my friends walked slowly because it was a bit dark but my friend Cecilia and I were walking at the front, so imagined our fear when we noticed there was a person dressed in white hidden behind one of those trees. The first thought that came to my mind was that he or she could be playing with somebody else and that was why that person was hidden, but there wasn’t anyone else in the street but us.
As I was quite curious and I was not afraid of anything, I told my friend to keep on walking so we could see nearer who that person was. When we were at about ten metres from that person, she (because it was a woman) looked at us and she ran till the next tree and she was carrying something on her arms. When she ran, we also ran but for the other side.
As the night to be ready to be enjoyed, I convinced my friends of going out for a walk, even knowing it was too cold and dark outside, I asked them to go to the surroundings of the Lawn Tennis Club as it was covered with trees and I loved walking over there.
As we were arriving to that place, some of my friends walked slowly because it was a bit dark but my friend Cecilia and I were walking at the front, so imagined our fear when we noticed there was a person dressed in white hidden behind one of those trees. The first thought that came to my mind was that he or she could be playing with somebody else and that was why that person was hidden, but there wasn’t anyone else in the street but us.
As I was quite curious and I was not afraid of anything, I told my friend to keep on walking so we could see nearer who that person was. When we were at about ten metres from that person, she (because it was a woman) looked at us and she ran till the next tree and she was carrying something on her arms. When she ran, we also ran but for the other side.
The hidden lady (second part)
We were scared because she was wearing a long white dressing-gown and she had long hair covering part of her face. She seemed to be a ghost for her appearance.
We ran toward where a police officer was and we told him the story, but he didn’t believe us. He told us that it was possible that that woman was a ghost and he laughed, but as we insisted, he went there with another official to check everything was alright and to prove us that we were wrong. A couple of minutes later, we heard screams and we saw that two other men ran toward that place. Meanwhile, we were waiting at one of my friend’s house when the police officer came(after an hour or so) and he told us that the woman we saw behind the tree had escaped from the hospital as she had just given birth a baby and she had taken the baby with her to kill him behind those trees. The woman was quite depressed and she suffered from mental problems.
We were shocked by the news. We never imagined that something like that could happen. Once the police man left, the woman was taken to a mental hospital and the baby boy was given to his father who was divorced of the woman and did not anything about what was happening.
I don’t know what has happened to them since that day, but I only remember that we were afraid of that situation but at the same time we felt proud of having saved the life of that baby.
We ran toward where a police officer was and we told him the story, but he didn’t believe us. He told us that it was possible that that woman was a ghost and he laughed, but as we insisted, he went there with another official to check everything was alright and to prove us that we were wrong. A couple of minutes later, we heard screams and we saw that two other men ran toward that place. Meanwhile, we were waiting at one of my friend’s house when the police officer came(after an hour or so) and he told us that the woman we saw behind the tree had escaped from the hospital as she had just given birth a baby and she had taken the baby with her to kill him behind those trees. The woman was quite depressed and she suffered from mental problems.
We were shocked by the news. We never imagined that something like that could happen. Once the police man left, the woman was taken to a mental hospital and the baby boy was given to his father who was divorced of the woman and did not anything about what was happening.
I don’t know what has happened to them since that day, but I only remember that we were afraid of that situation but at the same time we felt proud of having saved the life of that baby.
The Sunshine
The sunshine hurts my eyes and it’s hard to keep in them wide open. I’ve been staying for two days in my bed and I’ve just came out of it. It’s beautiful to keep in bed with your eyes shut imagining I have another life as if I were another person… If I had other feelings… sometimes it’s difficult for me to deal with some many sensations. My mood changes constantly. Now I’m sad, then I’m worried, relax, enthusiastic… I don’t know how to do it. So many feelings…
Now I feel overwhelmed… so many voices, laughs… and I just wanna close my eyes and hear the silence. I wanna be alone…
I cover my eyes with my hands, but the sun is shiner than it was before and still hurting my eyes. The pain doesn’t go… will it go someday?
Now I feel overwhelmed… so many voices, laughs… and I just wanna close my eyes and hear the silence. I wanna be alone…
I cover my eyes with my hands, but the sun is shiner than it was before and still hurting my eyes. The pain doesn’t go… will it go someday?
Saturday, August 11, 2007
On the move
Yesterday I was going to the institute by bus and while I was traveling I had a lot of thoughts that came to my mind. There were a lot of people and I said to myself how interested it would be to know what they were thinking in that moment. I watched them, and in certain cases, I felt I knew what those people thought about because they seemed to be transparent. They seemed to be lost in their world of pains and sufferings and some others seemed to be happy. I could see it in their faces, in their expressions. Some of them were impatient, constantly looking at their watches and some seemed to be resigned about something, with their eyes full of melancholy lost in a place that they only know. From time to time I could notice people in love who are the easiest to identify; pinky cheeks and bright smile, laughing most of the time. It’s funny because you see that on their faces, their eyes are so bright that it’s easy to recognize them.
Many times I wonder if other people notice that, or they just don’t pay attention to that. The thing is that every time I get into the bus, I tend to perceive those attitudes.
Many times I wonder if other people notice that, or they just don’t pay attention to that. The thing is that every time I get into the bus, I tend to perceive those attitudes.
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